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Journeying into the unknown

2011-03-03T20:44:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

I had stepped deep into the journey of unknown, swimming into seas that the bottom cannot be seen. It is a bold step of faith, courage and hope. Why do I step into this unknown where there future is muddy? This is because I BELIEVE. I see within these muddy waters, there is something more in that. Everything I am doing must have a purpose, if not, I would have found myself to be of no worth. If I had not made change in anyone in my past few years, I am basically a breathing, moving, eating, shitting animal. NOTHING more.

Ever thought deep in the middle of the night, What's my purpose? *Don't know leh...* WHY are you born HERE for??????????????????????????????????

After deep thoughts, I have decided, TO GIVE PURPOSE!!! TO MAKE CHANGE!!!

5 Years!!!

2011-02-28T20:37:00.002+08:00

It had been 5 years since I last logged in this blog. I have simply no idea why do I stumble back into this space of emptiness and load of stuff I'd written back when I was younger. Looking back, I have truly grown so much, both physically and mentally. Things are no longer what it used to be. Change is indeed the constant that keeps me going and it will continue to upkeep my lifestyle.

Looking at the considerable dust I have 'collected' for the past 5 years, I hope I can just clean up my thoughts and put up new thoughts. Thoughts of faith, hope & love. Thoughts of courage, honesty and integrity. Keep looking up here for new stuffs.

Paradigm Shifts

2006-10-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

Every heard of the Paradigm shift? It is actually the changing of pattern of what one thinks, feels, does and belives. There are many aspects and dimensions of how it shifts, why it shifts and the results of its shifting. What I have learned so far from many (eG. from Church, School, Systems, Family, Surroundings, People etc.) will result in the way I think and act.

Based on the so called 'mind-analysis' or 'calculation' based on logic and thinking, man have the ability to have the will or the decisive force to make his or her own decision on things like response, feelings, actions and beliefs. These abilities have actually formed in the human since we begin thinking as child even.

However, due to past good/bad experiences, teachings from others like values and beliefs, people become sometimes, programmed to react, response and feel for certain things they thought is similar to their past experiences. In such, sometimes man may turn to a shut down system.

Ever being triggered by some words/scenes/actions and you completely shut down your mind towards it? Or felt tremendous fear/happiness due to that certain trigger factor? YePs, once we experienced certain things, we either turn to it to some positive reaction or simply shut down for the sakes of whatever you think may occur the same again.

These basic logic thinking of humans could either be good or bad. It will help one to monitor the 'dangers', 'safety' or 'neutral' part of the situation. Its like you know what to do when something arises. In another term, its the so called 'human-instincts' in us that tells us what to do or how to react. However, these 'human-instincts' that is sub-consciously in us could sometimes be bad as well.

Why do I say that? Ever saw people exaggeratingly react to certain things they experienced? Like phobias, anger, devastation or even intention to kill/destroy. This results in the over-reaction of certain experiences that results in a person's mentality to think/thought that they are in extreme danger or malice that they begin to act in exaggeration.

Yes, I admit that not many of us have such tendencies. However, what I believe that everyone has a mild symptoms of such. Examples are like the kids will never play with fire once they know they will be burnt, some will learn their lessons through 'serious' discipling or threat, and others will simply not touch certain things like gambling/smoking/drug taking once they saw the results of others being devoured in illness, addiction and devastating results of the acts. These are actually the so called 'good' examples being showed.

However what I want to talk about is actually skepticism & cynicism. Skepticism is actually the avoidance or also known as shutting down of certain topics that is being conversed or talked about in conversations or communications. Many have sticked to what they thought certain things are and forever will be that they refuse to mention and think that it is as it is, already. Hence, they would find these conversations meaningless and useless. What ever that is being spoken by the other party would render totally useless and no point to the skeptical person who has already shut off once the title/word/agenda is being spoken. This is especially applicable to the elderly (no offense) and some others who have stucked to a certain thinking of certain topics. This is probably why you have heard that some people are stubborn and stiff-necked and refuse to see another pespective that may be a possibility for them.

What I want to say is that man should see things in different pespective. There are many angles and dimensions of things have man have not seen before concluding certain things. That is probably why debates are always on and there is never an end to conversations. I know there are others out there to also critisize what I have typed. But, frankly speaking, who cares? I do not really care what you think about what I said. I just type what I have seen, throwing in my 1cent worth of comments to things. Why bother with what I said right? But really, think about it, spare a thought for yourself, calculate for your own sakes, or at least for your future. What is really the right things for you to do currently. Practice what I believe, delay gratification, a certain mindset thought by my mentor in school, company.

Gratification is the level of satisfaction one gets from performing certain task or action. Be it temporary or permanent. What I feel is that we should put our priorities right. Delay Gratification was introduced to me when I was about secondary 4. What is means? To many gamers, the gratification we get is from completing the game we have right before us, as a result, we did not prioritize our time well and hence, our studies become affected. To me, it was rugby and lan-gaming in my eariler school days. With delay gratification introduced, I become more time-minded. We have 24hrs everyday, what we do with it will result in what will become or not become in the future. If we have done our homework today, we will not be punished by our teachers tomorrow. If we did not finished our work promptly, we would not have experienced a promotion at almost 90%. Realized the world 'IF'? It is the common excuse many of us have given to shine away from our responsibility or results of what we did not do. What it means? I have read a book, it gave an illustration.

It simply meant ' I want to be punished by my teacher because I really did not do my homework, but 'IF' I had, I would not be punished' (A choice was given, to do or not to do, but for the sakes of Instant gratification, I had to play the game before I do my homework, but when I wanted to do, it was too late, well, 'If I hadnt played, I would be able to do my homework') Realize again that another excused was given resulted in the fact that for the sakes of instant gratification, I would give the excuse that it was too late.

Many of what I learned came from experiences that made me self-reflected many times on my way back home on a bus, I was assessing my day, every now and then, I would never want my day to be of waste or, another day. I wasted a total of 1 year in secondary school doing things that were never constructive. I kind of wasted 1 year of my life simply doing nothing, making bad friends, giving plenty of excuses.

There are so many things to share about Paradigm Shifts, many of the experiences made me think more, reflect more and do more of what I have ever done. I would love to share more of the revelations I have in the near future and I hope that life will be changed from these. Dont stay the same, keep changing, from better to better, smarter to smarter. Its like what I learned in church, people grow from glory to glory, to strength to strength, from faith to faith. Every level will lead you to a higer destiny. Find it, Fulfill it.

What am I on Earth for? -Purpose Driven Life-

Shit Happens, Whine & Stay The Same or Decide To Flow & Live Out of It -=State oF minD=-

PreparatioN

2006-09-26T16:05:00.000+08:00

Howdy! Have been slacking at home since morning.

In totaly concentration for my fitness test later. I am totally bored @ home and its killing me!!! I am going to well today. I am pretty sure. Gonna beat my previous records. This is what I call outlive.

Well, just wish me all the best. ChaoX, gonna get prepared to head school le... ByEz

Resurrected

2006-09-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

Back from my 2 weeks of MIA yea? YePs, have been quite busy with training and watching anime lately. =D Slacking around now and checking my mails, seems like there are dozens for me to check. Was kinda lazy to go online nowadays too, no idea why, perhaps because, ITS HOLIDAYS still... By right, I should have more time to go online and so on, but by left, I seem to be unenergized to go online. Why? There is no definate answers actually.

Just thinking of revamping myself a little. Nop3, not fashion, not hairstyle (at least for this month)... BUT......

YES, YEs, Yes, yes...LifestylE...

I am going to go on a healthier lifestyle actually. In what terms, actually, Diet, Lifestyle(Sleeping), Execising... Discipline in all these actually. Lets see what is going to happen in sem 2.2 then... Not gonna meet many of my classmates, not going to really go out (have fun), cos financial difficulty (=D)

I wanna learn more skills too at the same time, the ability to empower via communication, mastery quotations. Yea?

For I am also Subjecting Myself To The State of Mental & Physical Challenge, Its Hard But The Results Will Be Sweet. Yes, definately a leveling technique, both mentally and physically. Of cause, my soul & spirit too... Thats all for now, be ready to see a slight change in me... probably, darker, fatter, stonier, stupider, smarter... Just let your imagination run wild. =D yeps...

Finally Back

2006-09-11T09:02:00.000+08:00

Finally able to post again. Its been few weeks since Ive typed something. This is becuase time did not allow me to post anything due to exams, things to catch up on after exams and time scheduling. But ultimately, I was actually lazy to post. Lolx...

Many things happened since my exams. This is considered a new season to me after my exams. Holidays are going on and I am going to focus on my training now. Training should be about almost everyday.

Went out with my classmates last week for a late birthday celebration for my classmates (about 5 of them), went to Ramenten (Jap Rest.) @ Far East and we were having lots of fun over there. We had Anson, the ultimate birthday cordinator doing all the dirty job for us (lol, he is all feared in our class during birthdays) Smashing the cakes @ the birthday gals + innocent people around also 'kenna' too hahaha!!! Then we went to play pool, almost everyone sucked @ it anyways, I was never good @ it. lolx... Had dinner @ Bugis and we went shopping around with our final destination @ Coffee Bean (Bugis) Really hope your guys had fun that day. I know I had fun, but wasnt 'high' enough to do stupid things like I did with my buddies. Yeps... Lucky never take too funnie photos, otherwise u all anyhow put @ friendster make me maLu... =D

As I head on a new beginning, so as my church is going to the next level, Pastor has been preaching more and more about the marketplace. Yes! We are going into the Marketplace like never before, with a pure and genuine heart, we are going to excel in the things we do, ultimately glorifying our God in heaven.

Results will be out in a few more days, I hope that everyone I know will be able to score good grades. I am most worried about my calculas actually, the others would not be a problem. Just my calculas, if i fail this elective, I am most certainly going to Sem 4.1. Think I would need all the help I can get for my calculas if I 'kenna' Sub-paper (hmmm... nevertheless, I will always stay in high hope before the results are out) God bless me, wooOo!!!! All the best man!!!!

Thats all for now, everything Ive typed are pretty general, there are too much details within the events. After all, Ive missed out several days of posting. ChaoX!

FenGxaTion,
Signed off!

Preparation for Exams

2006-08-26T00:53:00.000+08:00

Just had 2 exams today. Namely bus stats and DBIS. Think can pass both wee!!! ^^

Now left with 4 more papers like Mafit, Calculas(most hated subject), POM and EBM...

Gonna JIAyoUs...

GiVe Me SuPPorTTTT!!!

Oh I nEed You, GOD!!!

Prepration FenGxology Studies

2006-08-14T22:40:00.000+08:00

Hey, back once again. Its been fine these few days, nothing much happened. Was initially intending to go and watch the FireWorks @ Esplanade, but did not go because I have predicted that the crowd and amount of people going would go loose on that day. (+ many other factors of cos)

Oh well, what I wanna share actually is about the two Church services I went on, Saturday and Sunday. Guess you peeps would not want to miss it. Who would have thought of me going for two services, (thought you go church like once a week only nia meh? Why go two? Why extra?, you might ask) But frankly speaking, church going is not an obligation to me, its a choice to me. I choose to go church and learn about the things being thought there is because I know I can apply the things in life that have been thought to me in church. Whats more, the church is known to be the nearest place to God, its like the gate between Earth and Heaven (its a spiritual 'paradise' where man would never know unless God reveals Himself to him/her about it) Who would not want to be as near as to the living God that created the heavens and the Earth?

Yes, the question, what did I attended two services. Answer is easy, its because the church is conducting this church-wide marrige seminar for all members. Any persons of any age could attend even if you are not married or attached. Or even if you are in your primary school, single, homo-sexual(no offense), old. Any age, anyone.( As long as you can listen and understand, NPs) I guess its the first time in 17 years that pastor was gonna conduct this seminar. -=Interesting point, whats my reason for attending SUCH seminar?=- Well, its actually good to have a depth of understanding what marriage is actually about even before you enter into attachment or engagement, or even marriage right? To know what marriage is, its purpose and reason? Its maintenance? These were all shared in that seminar.

It has been like 4 sessions out of about 14 already. Out of the 4 I went for 3 I supposed. Last week was based on: The role and responsibility of women in the marriage (Sat) and role and responsibility of men in the marriage (Sun). I was fascinated by what pastor shared and it was good knowledge and revelation to me. There were so many things shared based on roles and responsilities that I dont think I can finish typing or sharing. I guess its amazing to have a wonderful church I can go to, to be entranced by the things shared and to experience the presence of God so real to me.

Point over here, I am not trying to promote my church or to boost on how good my church or anything is. I am simply sharing my experience in church and I would love to share this with my friends whom may not know, that I am a Christian (Hope I am living like one in your eyes, =D)

Just to inform: There are 8 more sessions on Making Marriage Work available and I think I know that some are extremely interesting topics like sex. (Stop fantasizing, zzz) Think you can find out more about it @ http://www.chc.org.sg/english/main.cfm =D The dates are different, you can come down if you want to know more about marriage. Dont think its too early, because one day you are gonna get married. =D lolx!!! (Stupid teenager over here trying to promote marriage, noob =D)

By the way, if you dont how what is my church, I am going to tell you now,
ITS CITY HARVEST CHURCH, (I know some of you have misconceptions about CHC, well just want to let you know, we are human beings too, and humans makes mistakes, only the Holy God is heaven is sinless and perfect. As a church, we are also not perfect, some of us may have hurt or disappoint you, (I know for even myself may disappoint and hurt you)

I would like to apologize on behalf of that person and apologize myself to you who may have hurt or irritated you due to our conduct. Hope you would not hold a grudge against us, =D Give us a chance to invite you once again and see how it goes wont you?

Actually, going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car. Why not give it a shot?

-=A church is never perfect, if its pefect, it would never need people like you and I and there would be nothing and no one who could attend that church because no human is perfect, would you agree?=-

Chien Sing's Birthday

2006-08-10T03:00:00.000+08:00

Today's post is exceptionally early due to a special event, CHIEN SING's birthdaY!!! WooO!!!

Had to plan with my friends on how to make that celebration a success, we went through the list of things to buy for Bbq, prizes for friends, games and invitation of friends. Thanks to the efficient and effectiveness of our team, we were able to plan all these within 2-3 days. (Which I want to deeply apologize for inviting my classmates on such a last min timing, understood that National Day is a Public Holiday for family day for many of you, wont blame you guys for not being able to turn up, =D)

We had an extremely fun and exciting time over at thE Bbq today. Everything went well I supposed. Its just that our Bbq went beyond budget, think my estimation of the bbq was overly estimated, there was simply alot of food left after the Bbq. We took bout 100+ pictures (using my 2 mega pixel cam HP which I mentioned in the earlier post that it was upgraded) Ive uploaded them onto my newly created photobucket, an online picture storage website @ http://s94.photobucket.com/albums/l105/saintz87 <---- Contains many obscene stuffs and undesirable pictures... Danger... Rated R-21 Enter at your own risk!!!

Think I'll say on behalf on Chien Sing to thank all the friends who turned up today for his birthday celebration. (guess about 30+ ppl ard) And I wanna thank those who helped up in the Bbqing of the food, helping out in serving new friends, making the friends feel comfortable and of cos, the great facilities & amenities provided by Joseph (Angie's friend) and his Mum (who helped out in tidying the place and teaching us how about Bbq tips) Thank you for making it happening!!!

Haha... Hope Chien Sing likes the gift our Cg and buddies had given him. They included a 77th street comtemporay jacket, a buckler belt (simple one) and a T-shirt which fitted with the jacket from bugis. Haha, guess my friend Claire's got a good taste with that T-shirt, <---- she spotted it... So jelous loR, cant have the shirtX... =D

Hope Chien Sing would have a change in his fashion style... Now 18th lE, YounG Adult Liao, muz dress with more style man... FooO!!! Guess it was a good day for the buddies to re-gather and bond again once again to reminisce the days of our sec school life... Think we were quite a nasty bunch who had so much fun when we were yonger. Now all becoming like suai ges and yandaos (except me, <--- act humble =D) Lolx... Was talking bout LaoLiu, Dora Lee and many other interesting teachers we had when we were sec 3 and 4. There was so much to talk about. Lolx... Hope we'll have such gatherings soon after our exams.

(The Buddies: Augustine, Chien Sing, FenGxun, Jeremy, Jimmy and Justin...) Why got so many starts with J one? zzZ!!!

Thats all for now, haha ChaoX!!! LatErX!!!

My phOny...

2006-08-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

HeyX DeRe!!! BacK from my few days break of writing blogs. What should I talk about first. Hmm... Let me see... Well... I GOT MY HANDPHONE W800I back!!! With a new cam and upgraded OS. Thats so cooLx!!! I totally missed my HP man. No music on my way to school or anywhere for the last few days. It was like being in hell in every bus I was in. Totally unpromising. But, thanks to soNy Ericson, I am back with my handphone, with much new style!!! Just wanna thank my Mum too for taking so much trouble for finding the freakin receipt to enable the warranty. Otherwise I might have to spend like 80+++ for the repairs.

Well, last weekend we had our Festival of Praise(FOP) and church 17th aniversary which was held at Singapore Indoor Stadium(SIS) These 2 events are held annually and it is a major event for us. Love the live music bands like Christian City Church(extremely lively and catchy, we are singing more of the songs they composed, keep loving it) band and Don Moen(btw, his voice is so beautiful, it sounds so angelical and heavenly, thank God for his talent) and his band around man. I had the chance to usher near the floor area where I could see them in close!!! FooO!!!! Love IT!!!!

DragonBoat training was cool too. Our juniors finally have the chance to train with us for the very first time. Guess it was cool to cox(steer in simple terms, if still dunno, GO CHECK THE DICTIONARY) on their boat. Though it was pretty unsyncro, but I could felt their strength. Its on the rise, slowly and yet steadily. However, I guess those guys are extremely enthu about shouting and having high moral. Keep that up, I would need more stR in rowing than shouting in the future. And plS, you guys gotto hear the coxswain's comand. (unless I was too soft?, which I doubted)

Next comes to the August Birthday Babies... IT IS SO VERY FUSTRATING TO HAVE SO MANY OF YOU BORNED IN AUGUST!!! ARGh.... I am going to spend a bomb on you guys... Haha!!! (that noob brain of mine saying, stop sprouting such nonsense in front of my bros and sis borned in the month of august, you are supposed to BLESS them... yea?) oOps... Lolx sry for being offensive.. I was just trying to giving justification to my wallet. But I know that their birthdays are beyond what my pocket matters. Its the hearts affairs, superior authority yea? Haha!!! Yeps, just wanna wish you guys the best for your studies, relationships, finance and LIFE!!! May those suai gEs get many Mei Meis and may those Mei Nue get many Yandaos... Haha!!! Wat a stupid birthday blessing... But i know you guys and gals really want It yea? Go get em all man...!!! wooo!!!! hapPY PeoplE!!!

More to be updated... Catch them later maN...!!!

Empowerment Comes by The Showing of True Sincerity of Care & Concern With A Touch of Challenge Towards One -=TalK=-

Hair with a STYLE!!!

2006-08-03T00:27:00.000+08:00

ArGh... I am reluctant to post on a new blog... Becuase the last one took alot of efforts writing...And it still looks fresh!!! But, what went by has to go off... Well, now is a new chapter of freshness!!!

Whats the new chapter? Woo!!!! Ive got a hair Cut, with a word, STYLE added onto it... Thought of changing a new hairstyle initially, but I have been with my long hair for quite a while, got relationship le.. So decided to continue leaving it long I guess.

Went through my most hated subject test today!!! CALCULAS!!! Never liked math or anything related to it... I had to pass the test today which consist of 5% of my coursework if not I will fail and I'll have to take sub-paper!!! But I think my cal teacher hinted me that I passed it... Wooo!!! Sign of relief yea?

OK, now the next obstacle is my DBIS, need some help from Kelvin I guess.

Finally, the TPDB juniors' selection is over!!! No more additional training sessions, can at least do some self-training on the way at the same time. The juniors have now intergrated together with the seniors' training schedule. Lets bring up the juniors together with us and lets head on towards our goal!!! The championship of next race!!! Those we were not selected do not be dishearted, for Perseverance is the essence of what one wants. Have you guys forgotten the word, TPDB? It stands for:

[T]echnique [P]reseverance [D]iscipline [B]onding

Technique Brings Forth Correctness That Ultimately Leads To Precision Though With Little Distinction -=Observation=-

Perseverance Casts Out The Possibility Of Fluctuation As Willpower Takes Charge While Distraction Whimpers -=UrgencY=-

Discipline Generates A Wall Of Seriousness That Never Allows Turmoil To Sneak In. Know When To Be Focused, Relaxed, Humorous And Discipline. -=SeasonS=-

Bonding Is Attained By Involving, Threshing It Out, Going Through Thick And Thin, Understanding, As Well As Acknowledgement. -=ConnectioN=-

Who came up with all these definitions? Tell you the truth, its Hak Loon... I just complexify(if there is such a word) it!!! (Dont expect me to explain such things in reality, I'll speak like a nut brain...) =D No la... lolx... I'll do my best to explain it la... Its like a feeling, you cant really describe it... You gotto feel it for yourselves.

Supprises comes beyond what your always least expect, its the secret to impression -=BlueprinTs=-

Combat Skirmish & OverNight MoVie!!!

2006-07-31T01:13:00.000+08:00

Wow!!! Its been an awesome as well as extremely tiring weekend. Had a superb birthday celebration together with a mid-night movie session with Claire and her friends namely, Ben, Shamus, Stuart aka Birthday Boi, Vincient, Kezia on Friday after my CG.

We watched 'LakeHouse' if I am not wrong. It was a kind of a touching romance movie, talking about how this couple namely Keanu Reeves(all the girls go, Ahhh) and Sandra Bullocks(Heard from my friend she's a playmate in play***) met and developed love even when they were two years apart. (Did anyone think I dont enjoy romance shows and was bored? No way I was bored even it was 3 or 4 am in the morning, cos its a totally nice show, and I would prefer to sleep at home, FREE than anywhere else right? All AGREES!!!)

This show is proudly recommended by Mr FenGx, its 4 out of 5 stars!!! Muz watch!!!

NexT dAy (saT), Mr FenGx rotted on his bed from 540am -620am shorty after he reached home, (smsing how proud he was reaching home eariler than the REST =D of his friends)
Woke up and went to take a bathe and got himself ready, for the days' event. THE COMBAT SHIRMISH EVENT!!! *CheeRs... *wooo!!! *Fooo!!!

This was proudly presented by http://www.combatlasersingapore.com !!! This event is an all time yearned event this half of the year by my BB(Boys Brigade) Boys @ TaoNan school. What is it? Its a Real-Live Simulation Counter-Strike(CS) game where 2 teams will battle and face out in a *map (could be sentosa, east coast, Fort Canning Park(wooo where went went) and actually, anywhere as long as there is space) And to kill one another with laser(infra-red) weapons that could ranged from (60m-120m), (2kg-3kg). The team with the least amount of spawns(deaths) WINs!!!

It was ULTI COOL!!! Although Mr FenGx only had officially, 40mins of sleep, (dont count me sleeping in bus la, [oops another 40mins Dere actually =D)], he was hyped up the moment we went for the Shoot-out of 15 vs 15. (Think I'll skip the boring part of waiting, assembling and ROTTING okAy?) Well, we had strategies planned out with my boys(P4-6) and we went ahead to take on the BLUE team. That was a horrible match, we lost by 1 respawns. SiGhxxx... Commando FenGx was killed TWICE!!! no...!!!! I dunNo how, he was like totally OWNED by the enemies. (OWNAGE) After that we went for 3rd place match and eventually WON the opponent team. Wooo!!! love it... The only thing I hated was that I got shot consecutively 4 times (you have 7 Health Packs b4 death) by a single BOY!!!, that was like, SO humiliating!!!

We eventually closed up with up with a P6 vs officers match. What Happened? 3 respawns to 7 respawns. Who WON? well, thats for you to ask me then!!!

After That I went off for ministry at church and went for an amazing Service with Pastor Mike Connell(an overseas preacher who comes once a yr kind) preaching and bringing deliverance. I was blown away by what happened, even a regular member like me is always shocked by what our leaders can do. I mean, there is so much transformation in the members and we could see it literally. ( I must admit that I was transformed by God in many ways which I could write compositions upon compositions on how I was changed)

Joy is being brought to my life ever now and then, surprises are constantly brought out when faith is set upon God's hand. You never know what is gonna happen. That is a walk with God, the exciting adverturous journey that one will never cease to give up when he is hooked.
-=HolyAddictioN=-

HooO!!!

2006-07-27T01:35:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, just updated my blog with a new video html!!! Hope you like the song... Its call 'Better Days' from Googoo Dolls (weird band named eh?) Haha!!! Enjoy man!

Today was a terrible day for me I guess. Got a kinda headache, migrain, neck ache feeling. I guess I had a sleeping disorder the day before. And with the contribution of my little hours sleep, it added up to a total diaster of 11am-4pm PAIN!!!

Oops, did not go for jr's trg. Sry guys, I was really feeling terrible, had to even skipped my precious gym session!!! Eah!!!! Oh well...Thank God I am FinE noW! Being able to write my blog in the middle of night at 1:35am!!!

Entering Into The Realm of The Unknown Where Faith Becomes The Compass of It all
-=Lost & FounD=-

Talents

2006-07-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

Had MAFIT(Management in Accounting and Finance In IT) test today. It was horrible. Think I would just pass or fail. After all, I only study for 2 and a half hours officially for it.

Well, went over to TaoNan School after my test. Its a special day today for the Boys Brigade Boys I supposed. We went over to Golden Age Baptist Old Folks Home located at Kallang to help out with brightening the day for the senior citizens.

I was simply amazed by my Boys who are from Primary 3-5. They could perform piano and violin without difficulty and it was like a piece of cake for them. I was astonished by their talents and gifts. TaoNan school is known for its reputation for bringing up smart kids. These Boys' parents are not our ordinary neighbourhood school parents. They are actually children from high ranking executives and managers parents. They could be considered the middle-higher class family group.

These group of Boys not only displayed their talents to the elderly, but they also showed their creativity with the handicrafts. They made a note books for the elderly and they also drew nice pictures on them too. What touched me was how they tried to interact with the senior citizens. Eventhough they could not communicate verbally due to the dialect differences, they Boys did an awesome job by showing signs as well as including them in the handicrafts work by asking the elderly to draw pictures and cut out cardboards.

Although I was tired, but the way the Boys acted really did energized me to do my best too. As an officer, I will not lagged out too.

Love ye, 41stj TaoNan!!!

Supprises comes beyond what your always least expect, its the secret to impression
-=BluePrintS=-

LiFE!

2006-07-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

The Composition of Legacy Creation, The Day of Full-Stop Is Written Is When You Stop Constructing New Sentences To Write. There Is No Word Limit, There Is Little Punctuation Marks, There Is No Vocabulary & There Is No Description. What Is It?

Its Your LIFE! The Moment You Stop History Making Is The Day You Will Look Back To Your Achievements & Finding It Memorable. Its When You Retire From Accomplishing New Goals.

Your Life Has No Word Limit; You Can Keep Writing and Creating New Experiences Everyday of Your Life!

The Punctuation Marks Come By When You Face Certain Things Like The Question Mark (?), Its When You Are Confused, The Exclamation mark(!), Its When You Are Astonished. However, The Moment You Type a Full-Stop Is When You Stop Constructing New Legacy.

What Vocabulary Is Needed When You Keep Using, Lah, Leh, Loh In Your Life? Lolx!!!

Most of What One Experienced Could Not Be Described Easily Because There Are Things Such As Feelings Beyond Description. Its Simply Indescribable.

Occasionally I'll think about these and look back at things and ponder. Its self-reflection, I guess we all does these kind of thinking all the time. However, those who are confused and have no heading, dont worry, you should set yourselves a goal to head towards. No matter how big or small, you guys have to accomplish them. For little successes leads to larger success. Most of what I typed are called the self-actualization stage where one had fulfilled all his or her basic needs. Its one of the highest level of fuifillment. Such examples are like:

Ever wonder what your purpose on earth is? What am I here for? Why was I created, or evoluted into such? What is beyond death? Etc... and so on. Well, some things cant be answer, while others can. Its up to our belief system. Think about it. Haha...

p.s Dont bother about this freak trying to act wise. He could be speaking nonsense psychoing you? Or rather, think about it and see whether it applies in your life. What would your story be if your life is casted as a movie? Think about it.

Oops, too high in typing too much le... Gtg study... chaoX!

Projects

2006-07-17T23:10:00.000+08:00

I'll be doing several projects this 2 weeks. Project due dates will be due in 2 weeks already. Lets all do our best in our projects and subjects.

Today marks the end of the 2 weeks dragonboat training break. I'll be back to my training together with my beloved brothers in dragonz... Lets hope that all my juniors will be selected for the team. Lets work together and build a reputable team that will be respected, yeps!

Back to school basic: yeps. thats refering to learning the ABCs of my guitar once again. I guess I'll find some time practicing and with some help. guess it'll all be good.

Nothing much to write currently... Yea... Make more entertainment, so I can write something more? Oh well, thats all... ChiaoZ....

The lack of sleep

2006-07-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

LackeD of Sleep today maN... SlepT at 3am in the morning eariler and woke up at 7am (supposedly 6am) Keep falling asleep during svc.

No mood to do any laming at all. (pasehx, cant entertain one guys =D)

Healing svc today... Stood up for prayer... Healed for my Hepatitis B liao. Believe at least by faith la... Lolx... I am poisonous, dont come near me. =P

Oops, revealed my weakness, cant take it? Exactly man... Accept me as who I am... otherwise, rock on!

I had a Good Day

2006-07-15T00:39:00.000+08:00

Its a good day today. Had a potluck with my friends and spiritual family. Just wanna thank Kelvin, Claire, Seeteng and Cindy for coming today. Free Food + Free Entertainment will come more frequently? Lolx... Hope you guys had Funx... Hehe...

ArGhx... My leg is having a soRe now... its been a few days le... Hope it will subside soon man.

Mesmerizing Times That Caught Our Attention Does Not Erase Itself Easily Until We Found It Futile -=DreamS=-

Soccer Fanatic

2006-07-12T00:32:00.000+08:00

OmG... Today is my first time playing soccer since one year ago! I cant imagine it man! Its been fun playing with my classmates and friends today. Totally cool!

ChangEd

2006-07-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

Lol... CHanged a New Blogskin... Totally aCt cute man... Hope You guys love It...

Infact, I dont know how to create skin actually... So... Juz C & P lor...

Been ages since I updated my blog...

I wonder how some people managed to get my blog... its like, I dont publish it around... (maybe in my friendster, =.='') PondeR...

Wooo No training for 2 weeks... Can do secret training... Not bad Huh?

Nth to say le...
-=Peace Out=-

Attitude and Alititude

2006-05-10T00:51:00.000+08:00

Today's training was totally unfruitful. What we did were merely punishments. But I know that they are for the team's good. For if we did not know what we were rowing, then what we have learnt has gone down the drain. SighX... I must admit that my fitness level is not even near any one of my team-mates. Especially my pull ups. I am going to put in more effort in my fitness level.

My health has been deteriorating (lazy to spell check), this morning was a cough. Now is flu + cough... How irritating. Unecessary things that comes up in my life when I do not want them to. Well, thats life you may say.

Wheeh!

2006-05-09T00:22:00.000+08:00

HeyAx... Its been awesome these past few weeks. Life is just full of mesmerizing experience and situation. You never know what is coming up next. Well, new batch of freshies are coming into dragonboat. Well... I mean they are really fresh and ready to be cooked. YepX... I have become a senior.

However, I am not truly a senior yet. My fitness still has lots of room for improvements. My coxsing(steering) skills has yet to be mastered completely. Hmm... Its been known that there are just unlimited things to learn in the world. We still have to get ourselves piorotized in things that will bring us up and forward.

Commitment plays such and important role. But without wisdom, my piority is never complete. Just yearn to have more Lolx! Well, my teammates and I are having more bond, but there is something missing. There seems to be a barrier, I need a KEY to access into that kind of understanding. Well... Gotto get more than. What I am lacking now is currently the substance. Gotto get them man!

Spirit That Hangs On

2006-03-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

Greetings, my apologies for not updating this for almost 2-3months. I have no intention of writing anything funny/lame/cold/humourous to you or anything. I guess this blog is meant for me to write about my life and feelings rather than entertainment.

There are so much agendas and stuffs I want to type in here; I am greatful for the one who invented this online diary programme for many of us to use/abuse/amuse/entertain

What I want to do here is more of speaking my mind in the typing way! Fact is, I dont really express well in reality. That is when the goodness and usefulness of this comes in.

Ever heard of the song 'Ulgy' by the group Sugar Babes? It is an awesome reality song which I must admit is truly what the majority of the world are doing. Although with large generalizaing of saying that people are all the same, what I feel too is that the majority of us are only jugding people by their actions and not their true hearts. I admit that I am also one who sometimes judge sub-consciously even if I dont want to. But the mind could not stop as I keep thinking and evaluating.

(oh, that person did something terrible today, hence this is what I feel 'judge' that he/she is) Hmmm... Sub-consciously we are actually doing that and we might not know. Impression seems to important. A little mistake could lead to downfall and failure, even rejection.

This is why I felt that:
How Awesome It Would Be If We See The Person As There Were When We First Met Them -=ImpressioN=- Before his/her actions, we would accept anything and everything about the person.

However, as time passes, as he/she clicks, certain actions he/she did wasnt appealing to you/I and we started judging and making evaulation. I have little idea of how can we solve the problem, much of the advises/solutions are given without specific instructions or anything. What I know is that we must use our hearts to really understand. No words can express how or what we can do. Only when we are set and are willing, then something can be done. Why, How, When & What I cant answer you. It is just what I felt.

FenGx

Sign Off

Business

2006-01-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, it always sure took me ages to update my blog right? Sorry for that, anyway, I doubt many are reading... Lolx... Me and my stupid low self-esteem working against me again. Well, the fact is, I have been busy with stuffs recently. Lots of projects gonna due and I am still slacking my study life.

I have become more engrossed in my cca I should say too. Well, all my team mates are extremely good to interact with. I often like to spray them cold words and languages, ya, you know what I mean right? Fact is, I am even closer to my dragon boat team mates than I am with my classmates. (Hmm... speaking of my class, I have been rather 'dao' with around them, or seem to be ignorant about them. Haha... guess thats me... Instinct and personality can never be changed easily.

Life is just full of unexpectations, however, just look upwards and seek your Lord God. Even if you do not believe, just look upwards with a bight hope that will lead you to great empowerment and motivation. After all, there is a potential in everyone. You will have to plant this 'believe' seed and allow it to nature and grow. ( I seem to be talking to much hope and believe stuffs and I hardly see myself applying it, what an irony. Well, at least its only for certain cases I am facing, I am on my way to living a more wonderful life) Cheers and all the best for those striving to become better each day. (Dont rot at home or anywhere =X)

school started

2005-11-09T01:16:00.000+08:00

Today is the third day and I have gotten 2 assigned projects... Eeks!!! That is irritating... haha... today is wining session...

Hi guys, still having holidays? Good old ye... Its so good to have holidays... Now I understand again... Boredom is one who creates it... not holidays which brings about it. Now, I shall psycho myself in liking school once again. Oh yea!!

Please tag in my board, anything will do... if you are reading my blogs... lolx... can keep urself anonymous also can la... (call urself xiaoming or something) But frankly, I really wanna know who you are.

Thats all for now, Take care once again!

SCHOOL STARTING!!!

2005-11-02T02:05:00.000+08:00

School starting in soon, looking much forward to it actually. Yea! Training is getting hectic... 5 trainings per week, and they come in sessions. Eg, Tuesday, session 1, 9-11, session 2 2-4.... the most shiok one was 3 sessions. Yea, getting new shirts once again, 1 singlet, 1 shirt and 1 polo!!! Shiok!!! hehx!!!

Preparing for regatta... oh yea!!! Getting stronger everyday, according to my coach Hak Loon, he says that the fitter you are, the more prone you are to virus attacks. This results in sickness and lots of injuries. I'll have to have vitamin C... everyday!!! Getting unnessary flus nowadays. So irritating!!!

AND I WAN 05S63 OUTING SOON!!! CMON CMON CMON!!! ALL THE JC PPL HAVING HOLIDAYS... AND I AM STARTING SCHOOL EEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OOPS ITS KINDA IRRITATING... WAHAHA PARDON ME... thats all for now.... Take care!!!

Looking ahead of what is there for me

2005-10-30T01:14:00.000+08:00

Hi guys... I am toooooooo bored liao... hence writing something...

My training schedule is so tight, I even got confused with the 3 session training last week for this week. Went to school at 830am in the morning and found out that the training is at 11am at kallang. And its ONLY ONE session!!! =.="... went to bedok to eat prawn noodles then took at detour bus back near my house, then to kallang. What a waste of time. I am SOooooo Sleepy now actually... Juz wanna check out my friendster and blog for a moment... so bored... lolx... should be sleeping instead...

Tio scolded by my senior for sleeping too late the day before. Couldnt focus, kept screwing up my pull-ups... (still a burden to my teammates actually, they have to support me so much) lolx!!! Felt guilty................

REcently, I've been focusing too much on my training that I forgo much of the things I ought to be doing. Like spending time with family and friends. And especially with God... back slided abit sia... God! I wanna come back to You... Please grant me strength!!! Oh Lord!!!

Sigh, today's blog isnt at all interesting. I am kinda like wining all the time... Should be doing that lolx!

Service today was awesome, Pst Robb Thompson shared some principles about friends and relationships. I am gonna summarize it abit over hear. So gonna read closely.

7 most important people in out life, how we know and regconize them?

1. Those who inspire us to do the right things and to obey.
2.Those who are driven by integrity.
3.Those who are assigned to our future.
4.Those who are God-given friends.
5.Those who celebrate you rather than tolerate you.
6.Those who unlock your gratitude.
7.Those who awaken your generosity.

Very summarized version. Gotto ask me to explain if u dunno wahah! Thats all for now... Take care all beloved, faithful readers.

Metamorphasis

2005-10-26T00:53:00.000+08:00

Havent been writing blogs for the past... hmmm 1 months and dunno how many weeks. I am so laaaazzzzzy to write now a days... Hi guys... did u miss my nonsense? Well... guess u dont... cos its too lame... whaahha

Finally the Jc ppl are entering their holidays... well... find something to do for your holidays then. Perhaps a trip overseas could get ye refreshed? Or some work off at Orchard might bring you some extra income. (haha might even get hit by some hunk or babe)

I am now training very hard for my Dragon Boat. We are having regatta on November. Cheer me on ppl! Haha... I am also entering a metamorphasis stage now. Gonna see the new me next time manx...

School is reopening for the poly students and I am looking forward to it so much. Why? Because there are girls in school to look at wahahah (lolx kiddin la), gonna change class... Kinda curious to find out whom I will meet in my new tutorial group and class... Yea... hopefully I can meet up with my ex-classmates Ian or Brian. Yea!!!! However, gonna miss 1E04 ppl (or if we are fated, we might end up in the same class) wahaha!

okay, thats all for now... gonna go slack again le la... Saint's Spirit Foreva Be With You!!! God bless!

Moving into the Coxswain

2005-09-25T01:24:00.000+08:00

Hey 05s63, all the best for your promos and examinations! May the Lord of all bless you people with good memory and great understanding and may your soul prosper. 1E04 people, may we meet again next semester and lets excel in our studies! N102 people, may God grant us wisdom and love, that we may share the gospel and our testimonies to others and may N102 score the best amongst JA zone. Haha... wishing everyone good luck and all the best for everything they do! God bless!

Hmmm.... wheehx... finally the dragon boat freshies are getting a brand new T-shirt... Cant wait to wear it to school to show off... :p... haha.... Heyx people that are reading this blog... Juz wanna let u all know that I am working as hard as u all do... some people who are working outside for extra bucks, have lots of rest and keep urself healthy man. Those taking exams, have chicken essense before every paper, it really helps. Those who are slacking at home and doing nothing except facing the box for 24/7, get ur butts up and go for some excercises outside man.

And those playing games, dont push urself too hard in the game man. (dont even see u pushing hard in life) know the limits of the body and have sufficient rests... Those in church shining for the Lord, keep ur minds renewed daily, keep ur prayers stong and fervant!

Haha, btw, Coxswain is a steerman who usually hangs out at the back of the dragon boat, I am that! Lolx... Kinda fun, but I love rowing more, it makes me pespire (which means work out, and of cos, LOSE WEIGHT, weeeeeeeee!!!!)

YESH!

2005-09-18T01:02:00.000+08:00

Heyx guys... Lolx... havent been updating my blog... really sorry, komei... NOW, exams are over... But, new waves of stress is coming up... And I am enjoying the ride of stress Lolx... Somehow I dunno why I can stand the waves of stress... I guess its the grace of God upon my life. Praise the Lord!

Well, as I end my semester, so do I end my job as a class representative. Really thank 1E04 for giving me a chance to see what I am really capable of doing. You people should try being a class rep too, its kinda challenging for me I believe, I get to get 20 seal points for being a class rep too, its a really good offer for 1 semester Lol! I guess I am not a leading material lolx.. but at the same time, I dont really hang out with chickens too. I am kinda weird person to be truth lolx.

By the way, I can start entertaining again, yea... Thats the best part... Always look out for the other side of me... But I always shy one... =.="

Heyx by the way... tell ye all a good news... I am officially a Dragon Boater... yea! I passed the selection test. It was totally awesome when I heard the news. Although I didnt turn up for today's training because I overslept. -_-! hehx... Well... congratz me lolx!!! Thats all about me for now... Juz here to say GOD IS GOOD TO ME!!!

Yaonie

2005-08-30T00:33:00.000+08:00

I am in the midst of my study week... today is the first day of TP study week... 2 days for 1 subject is simply not enough... so stress... not enough time to finish all my chapters... So yaoNie...
Here to write some nonsense to relieve stress.

Have you all saw Russell peters clip? Its so damn funny... you guys should get the full clip of it... its ard 40mins+++ Its like multi racial jokes... and I was laughing at the chinese jokes he said...

And have u saw Report on Iraq clip? Haha, if u havent... can ask from me... its a gift from my beloved friend, Augustine... there are a few more funny clipx... feel free to ask from me... its all from my friend... AUGUSTINE LIM...

Oh ya, talking bout sadistic stuffs... go watch happy tree friends.. its found in http://happytreefriends.atomfilms.com/index.html Its damn sadistic de... see liao dotx de...

finally

2005-08-21T00:27:00.000+08:00

Finally my project presentations are over. However, more waves are slamming me on the back as I head towards my semester examination. In about 2 weeks, I’ll be having my examination. Having lesser and lesser time to update my blog, I feel very guilty, cant entertain you people much. Sorry…

Had my school TP Student Union (SU) camp this weekend (Friday-Saturday), great to know many fellow members from sub-com and it’s awesome to be in MonCherries… Hope to work better with the people in the near future with the upcoming events after examinations.

Sorry for my lack of active participation especially in my conversations. I’m scaled more to the introvert side and I hope to move towards the extrovert side of myself through the trainings in SU. I’m shy with girls too, after all, I came from an all-boys school background. So I guess its pretty normal for me to take some time to adapt right? Well, lets hope my effort and time will help me to move towards my goal of being more extrovert, bleat…. ( I seriously wonder who reads my blog man, Lolx)

My projects and I

2005-08-11T13:29:00.000+08:00

Hey, I'm in school now typing my blog. Too sianx liao la... Haha, havent been updating for ard 1 week liao. Well, I've been doing projects and hence, no time to update anything. (well, I was slacking off abit too at home actually) Realise there is nothing much to talk about my life. Its like so boring. My projects are coming from waves upon waves, I've no time to gasph for air even. Haha, lots of events are happening too. I guess I'm gonna be pretty busy to update my blog (seem like no one reads it also) Well... I'll post intersting things if there is a need too. Well, gtg... chaoz...........................!!!!!!!

Soap opera

2005-08-03T01:15:00.000+08:00

How come I always end up writing blog after midnight de ah? So dumb... Like that is like depriving myself of my sleep. Oh well, I guess writing nonsense is pretty coolx... Someone is actually praising the humour in my blog. Continue to support it then.

My life revolves around people, around my family, around my friends, around myself... ( =.= fei hua lian piang) lots of interesting things happen everyday that is worth talking about. Of course there is saddening things and demoralizing things. However, I wont mention much in this blog. I tend to keep it to myself more than sharing. Something that is worth talking about today is how I go to school today. It was so interesting, I went to take bus 72, sat in it, slept, and areach school. (eh... not funny)

Sigh, actually nothing much happened today la. Went for dragon boat training nia... haha not even in the team yet. Have tests to go through... Well, lots of stress building up... someone care for me please... lolx... (i look like i dont need any encouragements de hor?) haha my self confidence looks high... (but actually... its accccctttt.... only) haha nice work to use... accccctttt only.... read it out.. it sounds funny... another would be.... caaaakkkeeeee Sai... heh..... interesting hor? Learn a lot of funny words from Ri xiong(pika) and justin... nv learned b4 in sec sch sia.... si Huo... heh... still find my previous post funnier lehx....

Days of our lives

2005-08-02T01:48:00.000+08:00

Realised I never mention much about my friends in this blog. Especially the daily activities I had done with my classmates. Well... Guess I'm gonna concentrate abit on talking about my classmates.

Well, guess I'll go back to some of my memories last week. My course oraganised a fulsol match last saturday and there were around 8 teams. The matches are all knock-out matches, once lose, gonez... Well, my team was formed by 6 players. They are namely Justin, Ri Xiong, Roy, Caspar, Kelvin and myself. It was a 5-5 match and it was our first game together as classmates(never had any practices at all -.-) We played with a team called PORK and we were trashed 6-1 flat and hence, instantly knocked out. Well, this seems like a failure, but the fact is that our team didnt have any practices and many of us were not at 100% too. Guess it was a very good experience for us. (good thing is that there was seal points( known as cca pts in poly) for that activity and we were pretty happyabout it)

We vowed to take revenge............. well, actually by eating PORK chop on monday. There monday came and we CHIONG to take our revenge, "PORK CHOP ONE" I shouted to the western food uncle, he echoed with a smooth voice saying " pOrK cHoP one" Having my Pork Chop... I came to realise the news of people in China eating diseased pork... I went bonkers and went fasenjing... hmm... but in the end, I still finished the pork chop(very hungry la)...

After that my group of Roy,Joseph,Justin, Ri xiong and myself went to do our Communication skills project. While doing our project, Justin, the Steamed-one, saw my file and took out my precious wu ling mi ji(martial arts scripture)... (my classlist with birthdates) I couldnt stop him as his qi gong was too good. He took out and compared the birthdates. He realised that most of our group members are all OLDER than him!!! He steamed and started calling us uncles and ah-peks.

Xiong-Ge is the oldest among us and many of us thought that he was actually 17... Guess the proverb: Never judge a book by its cover was really worth describing the scenerio.

Well, lots of funny things happened in my school and I wish to share them through this blog. Hope you readers enjoy it... I'll be sharing more in time to come, with much more spices I'm adding to spice up the reading. Don't concentrate too much on the language, I'm using a mixture of singlish and english and chingish and hokkeinish and so on... If you mind too much about the texts and language, you will go ZHUO HUO RU MO(self-destruction)... then evolve to become YAO NIE ( monster)... English will deteriorate and eventually, become like mine... MUAH!

Hur Hur!

2005-08-01T02:31:00.000+08:00

Zhao shang liang tian ban liao, wo hai zai ze li fa sen jing... Hmmm... Today had to rush to do IISO report and study Accounts tests. Now feel very sianx 1/2... Can't seem to fall asleep... Slept too much earlier wahah... (sorry for the singlish used, acting more Singaporean now a days)

Anyway, please feel free to tag... (tag as much as possible, ITS FREE !!!) But dont spam la...
And feel free to allow me to link you also leh... cos the more the merrier, it would be very awesome to have lots of links with other friends... haha!!!

Komei... Took my whole life to update this blog... Lol

2005-07-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

Finally... the most wonderful script writer is back to write nonsense for his readers to entertain them. Seriously... I apologize for my slow slow slow slow reaction to update this blog... You see, as I am a very busy businessman, dealing with clients all day long and doing documenting, I have little time to update this blog to entertain you people... Well, I guess even in the misy of my business, I could still entertain you all. Hmm all this nonsense, its all due to my laziness la actually. (NOT FUNNY LOR)

ok... Serious issues, I think I am going to share with the readers more of myself more through this blog. Hope you all can connect with me next time when I am out with you people. Heh... I'll talk more about my daily activities and my experiences in life...

Finally, a little breather

2005-07-12T00:58:00.000+08:00

Wooh... Finally tests are over. A week break has began and spring has passed. Oops, havent been updating my blog for a while, guess it has gathered lots of dust around. Well, I'm gonna do a thorough cleaning today then. I'm gonna change my skin I think... But not exactly sure how to change. Anyway, there seems to be an ominous cloud over me today =.= KENNA ANKLE SPRAIN TODAY AFTER TEST. HOW SUAY!!! From lame, become lammer liao la.... Oh well, I guess I'm fated to get an injury(cos I always kenna injured at least once per year, its like an injury season. No worries, it always happens, goes all back to rugby days, when I get dislocations, broken bones, open wounds and even concusions. Haha, just kidding, not so much injuries la... The worst one was only a minor operation on my shin. Hospitalised for 4 days. Well... at least now can play a bit... wheeh!!!

I think I am the problem

2005-06-30T01:38:00.000+08:00

My friends say I Pang sei/Tua (abandon) them now a days. I'm wondering if this is pressure or some psychoing comments? Its so difficult to differentiate, if I don't go by their wishes, they'll say I pang sei, if I go by it, they'll think I'm a complete follower(the chicken). What's the problem? I think I am the problem... Maybe I have compromised too much because of my over-commitment to others? Or is it my choice of putting something else first before them which caused them uneasiness? If you are my friend, I really apologize for my unintentional offense. I'm not wise enough to choose things and make things happen. Please understand and tell me about my mistake if possible. Will real friends remain as friends even if they don't always meet to go out as often as before? I'm afraid of this... Still staying optimistic about my friends around though. Strife for wisdom...

Thank you

2005-06-28T21:34:00.000+08:00

Hey, many of you have been sending me birthday messages... Thanks for remembering my birthday. Though it is easy to spot my birthday since there is friendster reminder, but I really appreciate the effort you people gave. LOVE YE!!! hahaha... (hmmm just missed the present only whahaha) Kiddin... ur effort is much better then gifts!

The Pishy - personality

2005-06-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

This is a personaility test conducted by my school. My results are shown below. Please make comments to see whether it is accurate or not.

Your Primary Phishy Personality Factor is Peaceful Angelfish, and its Key Characteristics and General Traits is summarised as follows:

Key Personality Preferences: Reflective & Relational
Key Value Displayed: Peace (Harmony)
Key Motivator: Security (Protected)
Key Concern: Disharmony (& Fast Pace)
Key Emotion to be Harnessed: Worry (e.g. Excess Fear or Anxiety)
Key Complementing Values to be Nutured: Initiative, Integrity

Potential Strengths:
Calm (Gentle, Mild, Controlled), Peaceful (Mediating), Amiable (Friendly in a reserved manner), Kind, Patient (Tolerant, Good with Routines), Easygoing (Obliging, Agreeable, Adaptable), Cooperative (Non-Assertive), Contented (Satisfied), Consistent (Predictable), Diplomatic (Tactful, Inoffensive), Slow and Steady, Persistent, Good Listener, Loyal (Faithful, Dependable), Pleasant, Restrained (Self-Controlled)

Potential Check Points:
Compromising (in excess), Aimless (lacking in ambition or direction in life), Lack Initiative, Lazy, Unenthusiastic, Uninvolved (Withdrawn), Indecisive, Boring (Dull, Plain), Over-Kan-Cheong (Anxious, Fearful), Worrisome, Too Slow (Sluggish), Bo-Chap (Indifferent), Stingy (Calculative),Reluctant, Pessimistic

Your Secondary Phishy Personality Factor is Careful Goldfish, and its key characteristics and general traits are summarised as follows:

Key Personality Preferences: Reflective & Rational
Key Value Displayed: Perfection (Precision & Accuracy)
Key Motivator: Principles (Rules)
Key Concern: Disorder (Lack of Plan or Policy)
Key Emotion to be Harnessed: Gloominess (e.g. Depression)
Key Complementing Values to be Nutured: Compassion, Initiative, Respect, Cooperation

Potential Strengths:
Careful (Conscientious), Accurate (doing right the first time), Precise, Anaytical, Logical, Hard-working, Sensitive, Planner, Organised (Orderly, Timely, Scheduled, Systematic), Well-Mannered (Cultured), Disciplined, Compliant, Persistent, Detailed (Thorough, Meticulous), Loyal (Faithful), Gifted, Intellectual, Restrained (Self-Controlled), Comfortable with Facts and Figures.

Potential Check Points:
Fussy, Perfectionist to a fault, Over-Critical, Over-Suspicious (Sceptical), Over-Rigid (Policy must be adhered at all cost, inflexible), Over-Traditional (Conservative), Resentful (Bitter), Unforgiving (Revengeful), Difficult (hard to get along), Too Sensitive, Moody, Lonesome, Easily Depressed, Lacking in Humour, Uninvolved (Withdrawn), Not-Practical (Too Theoretical), Pessimistic.

Just being true-my testimony

2005-06-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

In life, many people are changing and wearing masks constantly to cover up the ugly truths about themselves. At different occasions, masks will be changed constantly so that the mask will fit into situations. To me, these masks are actually our shields to 'protect' ourselves because we are vulnerable to attacks from others. Maybe I am wearing a caring/selfless mask to cover my mistakes and temper I once had? But truthfully, I find myself constantly wearing this particular caring and selfless mask around in any situation I am in. Perhaps, this is not a mask I am wearing; it is a character that I have developed.

Truth of the matter is that I was once a really hot-tempered, easily irritated/annoyed person. I was always sprouting vulgarities and getting into unnecessary disputes. Soon, I found myself getting into trouble and with the disciplinary committee, with records of playing truant. After that, I found myself failing in most of my subjects in the final year which led me to retaining in Sec3.

I was depressed and I found no purpose in living in this world. ("What is the purpose of me living in this world" I thought. ("Perhaps it’s just earning money? Enjoying life? Going through a relationship and get married, have children, retire, die?) (that’s like so purposeless, living in this world, going through a tough time studying, earning money, seeing things go wrong, watching the world struggling in natural disasters, economic problems and social problems (Is it mainly just to have lots of money and enjoying it? )

However, there was a change in me after I accepted Jesus Christ into my heart. There is a sense of peace and purpose in my life. Loving the friends and family members around me, I become clear of the identity of myself in the things I do. Now, I am just caring and help people. Its in me, God has changed my heart.

Just want to let those who are not saved to know, there is a person who really loves you, and that is Jesus Christ. For it says in the bible that for those who believe in Him will not be perished in the times of judgment and will have eternal life. Just want to share this joy with you. Live a life full of purpose and love. Dont just wear a mask so to protect yourselves(for we are weak, but He is strong), but rather, let God cloak you with righteousness and holiness. For those who are obligated to other religions, just want to share my testimony to you all, no offense. However, do not hesitate to come to me if you need help. Though I am a Christian, but I am also imperfect, so please forgive me if I have offended anyone.

With Love,
Feng

Treasuring friendship

2005-06-13T01:14:00.000+08:00

Fear strucks me as I look into the last 10 years of my life. I realise that my circle of friends isnt that large at all. I can count with my fingers and toes how many friends and best friends I have. Most of the others are merely aquiantances. I really hope to cherish the friends I have around me and I hope they will share problems with me. I hope that my friends will help me to improve myself by giving me feedbacks about myself.

Really, treasuring friendship is really important to me. Despite the differences in interests and personality, friends really stick together and help each other , picking up one another when falling.

For those whom I have not really treasured or spent enough time with, I hereby apologize to you and hope that our friendship will continue to last.

The nick area

2005-06-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

Here to post the nicks of my classmates:
Justin: Justea(known for making the best tea) (Li-er)
Huen Luen: HL milk (recently change to banana milk(newest product) (Ling-er)
Jesline: wan jie ling (magic clean: can even clean dust in class) (Ling-er 2)
Sharon: sabo queen ( special jutsu: bloodline de, need chakara) (Ying-er)
Joseph: Korean actor, Josey/Josephine ( mix too much withe the girls =p) (Ning-er)
RiXiong: Pikachu ( always sot people) (Xiong-er)
Cherly: currently no nick
Ashley: Pokemon trainer (very commanding) (Wen-er)
Roy: currenly no nick
Casper: Yandaoz ( super suai you mei you?) (Feng-er)
FengXun: er... dunno wat nick la... DaiLou? (Feng-er 2)
HuiXin: XiaoXin/Ah Xin (Xin-er)
JinYin: Lion (fearsome one) (Yin-er)

Missed my jc mates

2005-06-09T02:44:00.000+08:00

Lol, I'm beginning to miss my jc mates. Met them in my first 3 months in sajc. Miss my class 05s3. The people were very hospitable towards me and they were all very helpful in my first 3 months. All of them look like ordinary people, but there is something else about them, that is their intellegience and
their workability. We often joke and have fun together. I was called the super ponster of my class becuase I
always pon lectures and tutorials.

All these smart people are not only good in their studies, some are even talented in sports. Lol, this often makes me quite Zi bei (pesimistic) when I'm with them. However, they never
fail to encourage me and help me. I guess these bunch of people are out there to take on great challenges.

All the best to my JC mates. Now I got to strive for the best in my poly too... TP oieE... Frankly, poly is as fun as Jc, its just how people interprets and make it happening, enjoy, choose life!

Apology

2005-06-07T00:42:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, have not been writing or making any changes in this blog. Pardon me as I do not have enough time to read through any html design or time to clean up these blog. Another day has passed, I am slowly intergrating into Tp system. My clique have been enlarged, my friends are all awesome. But I still miss my ex-classmates sometimes. Went to chalet with them last weekend. Had quite a lot of fun. People, if you can give me feedback about myself, I'll be great... (hinting you to give testimonials) lol... but do not hesitate to tell me about my character. I am quite open to find out about it. (but just tell me privately) :P

Feel free to chat with me too... can understand you all better then good ma... Love ye all...

Entertainers

2005-06-02T01:36:00.000+08:00

Today's topic is about my class' 1E04 entertainers. Namely: HL, Justin, Erm... still got who ah? Gimme suggestions please. In the meanwhile, as I said that these two are the main entertainers in our class. Without them, class would be like the movie 'Day after tommorrow' How cold and lost are we? Oh well, their existence is very important, like life needs water, so does soul needs humour.

Guess the class greatly appreciates you guys in our mist. Reaching out to people using humour isn't an easy thing to do. Just like anaylzing and formulating an ingredient, there must be precise and perfect calulations for it.

I have similar friends who uses such techniques to relate to people. Examples are like Akira Lim (my rugby teamate in sas) and my ex-classmate (Augustine Lim) Wow, both are Lim if you realised it. They are specialised cock talkers and humour experts.

These people in the society will have great social lives and great interaction abilities. After all, the soul really needs a tick of humour to keep it lively and workable. In other words, their PaMaPi(boot licking) techniques are at professional levels too and they can really make life exciting.

Lol, these things are based on normative ideas. If such people does not have good certificates, they can forget about entering Strategic Management or even Tactical or Operational Management. Maybe can go into Clerical and floor workers management category? Clerical sounds awesome isn't it? Well, acutally its just a professional name for clerk or cleaner. All the best to you guys out there, do well, score well and talk well.

(ZzZz... like writing special review about entertainers, personally, I really like entertainers lolx...I dont entertain though, failure at it wahaha) ^^ Cheers, readers!

A day of stress? NAhz...

2005-06-01T00:25:00.000+08:00

Did I looked stressed in the morning? Why you people keep saying I stress ah? Lolx, perhaps my appearance and facial expressions looked really stressed in the morning because I had to do lots of "admin" things. However, it was certainly not really that stress. Great to serve you people ye know? ( *Nodz* sabo queen's head(lolx) kiddin) Pespiration(not sweat, sweating is for animals; english teacher teach de) is part of me thanks to the weather that is so cool that I couldnt really (hua xue: ski)

Dont worry about that little pespiration (tho its sometimes smelly, but I wear deodrant) LOlx... Thankx also to the kind souls who offered me tissues btw, I have lots of tissues, can ask from me if dont have also.

And btw, the joke we created through accouting was really funny. What Ah long(loan sharks) accounts, the bad debts are the amount unpayable from the people whom the ah longs have hacked to deaths. Then still got expense incurred like buying pig heads and paints to chase money from debtors. Guess the ah long account books are much more complicated then ours. So lets work hard for our subjects including Business Accounts. ALright?

Heya People!

2005-05-31T00:23:00.000+08:00

Hey people, this is my new blog, awesome right? But I still noob a using HTML and creating fanciful things on this blog. I'll do my best to make this blog out standing, so you guys can enjoy reading or browsing it LOL!!!

Must come visit my blog often hor? I'll appreciate that wahaha!!! ^^

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